definitely lost
the pool shows no reflection
the trees have no leaves
but leave marks
but leaves fall
but leaves terror
but leaves surround
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can i be heard when i shout
if no ones hears, am i really talking?
yes,
but does it matter?
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right now let's pretend
(or at least pretend we're pretending)
that there is nothing.
for a moment believe belief
is unbelievable.
can you find your way?
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the question tonight is one of reality
the reality of which i've known
and the reality i now know. (well that was depressing)
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11/13
it takes more than just me
it's the distance between
space and time
you and me
love and lies
o end this misery
it takes more than just you
deciding to
be wrong when it's right
giving up the short-lived fight
that i thought we had
but honestly,
i don't know what to do anymore
you, my dear, seem to have all the boats at your dock
and i'm left in the middle of this ocean
looking for a seahawk
to point me in the right direction
before i drown in the middle of this god-forsaken sea
without you, beside me.
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Envy 1/18/10
while i look up
i want.
i desire.
to crawl up the latter of this food chain
and be like them.
those that trample our homes
and kill our children.
that live in ease and comfort
as we look up in terror.
If only i could be like them
If only i could be anything but an ant.
I Remember When 2/1/10
the flowers bloomed the blossom yellow
one thousand leaves tunes nature's cello
sounding the new dawn
inspiring the born fawn
to leap into the glories of spring
"it takes time" she said
to the new born
"the deadness of winter may have
caught us at the wrong time.
you came along.
things started to unwind.
but i promise you, child,
it will come in time."
travel travel
the newly laid gravel
fresh springs on the side
signs of spring all around
beside what lies before me
every step on this ground.
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january 30, 2010
there was a time in which i hoped in spring
what the budding of flowers an changing of seasons would bring
snow may be melting
but frozen is the land
abandoned and deserted is the land of his hand
in time
things seemed like they could change
you melted this frozen heart
then froze it over again
yet still i wish to call you more than a friend
in time i'll see the rising of the sun
in the distance over the horizon
melting the frozen land
singing of things to come
i'll still be waiting
under the rising sun
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cherish life as a gift. live with no regrets. you do not know when it may be the last.
